All Water’s Moments

Well hello. I’ve been aiming my way back here for a long time. I’m sitting in my Writing Club with middle schoolers who are happily typing away on their own work. I was looking for something to work on when I stumbled upon this poem.

Do you ever have the experience of finding something you wrote long ago, and you say “Hey, wait, this is pretty good”? Well that’s what happened here. I hope you think so, too.

And I hope I’m back. Momentous things may be happening for my writing soon, and I’d love to share them with your!

All Water’s Moments

The stream is creating its course as it flows,  
not carving it
into the rocks and soil;
it is wearing them down,
so slowly and quickly
that it is happening in two
different
seconds.

This stream’s wet pattern is the laying of itself into the silt and stone,
ever creating and sustaining its path.
Thus it changes
always
now.

Thus it is creating the pattern of its own tone,
A tone made up of all its water and of all its moments:
Its great single sound
is a mingling of large and small waterfalls,
spigots,
ripples, V-shaped like bird migrations,
spouts and shallows;
water caught in rock-trap cataracts rasping and splashing,
water deep bass in shadowed crevices,
pouring so thick it is both clear and obscuring,
full flowing into the pool it is ever carving.

Only the dirt and rock can feel this streams underside, touch its other surface.
Unless I will lay in it,
dig myself down so the top of my skin
is even with the skin of the planet,
let the stream cover me
wet me,
yes, drown me,

But before that I will feel the sliding of its bottom water
On top of me.

But I will not,
because it is too cold,
and I would die.

In the ever-moments I have with this stream,
It lets me see a little of the slowness
that is hidden in its rushing,

All of its flickering frozen moments,
numberless as stars and pages.

It slows down only enough to define its slipping away.

And I see it dousing a stone, browning its tan rock skin,
And I see it part around a boulder, and the sound it makes
must be that of water tearing.

I see where the waterfall has caused a spout at its base,
so some of the water that funnels down
curves back up
and reaches its top and comes
down

so that splashes
jump

off

and I have to think it is playing, the water is playing, because if I follow a splash
down
I see it form,
bend out,
come apart and arc a diver’s curve,
and then there are so many others,
brief splashes,
about to fall back into the flow,
and I laugh,
which is why I think it’s playing,
because it’s not right to just stand by a stream
and laugh at water,
is it?

And it asks me,
in its stream language of gurgle and burble and moan,
and patter and drip,
Of low boom,
it asks, “can you see now
flowing by?”

and the sound drops back down, and there is the water, thin and fast, and there is Thoreau, of course, he’s always hanging around by the stream, and he says, “now now now now now now now now now now now now now,” until I just about hit him, and I’m about to shout, “I get it!” but he has that look on his face, the one he gets, and you realize that in that man’s mind he is only trying to teach you, and he is taking this seriously, but he also sees the humor in it, and the inherent absurdity, but also the incredible meaningfulness of it all, also that I am beneath his contempt, that we are just humble specks hurtling through space, that we are all one, and we are all separate, and how can you hit all that? I wouldn’t know where to aim.

Frost Heaves


Weather changes the most familiar paths:
Snow buries landmark stones.
Deep puddles block the trail
From boots and paws.
Fallen trees bar the way.

Today the ground
Crumbles under my step
And my foot is suspended
Above the cracking path

I’m surprised,
But it’s not the first time
I've stepped on a frost heave.

For a moment I enjoy
Pretending that the Earth is giving way,
Opening
And I will fall through
And fall
And fall
Into an unimagined abyss.

My eyes open. 
I'm standing on the trail
My right foot is crooked,
But cupped by the sustaining earth.

Eyeing the ground.
I seek out more frost heaves,
Step on them lightly
To feel the crust breaking

Reliving the perilous moment
When everything below fell away.

“Great Pond” from my book Self of Steam

This is the beginning of my poem “Great Pond”. I visit Great Pond State Park frequently, as it is a five minute drive from my house. So when Anna and I took a rain hike there today, I felt like I should post from the poem I wrote about an epic hike we took there one time.

Great Pond  

I am dressed for a hike
In the sunlight.
My gear is made for a crisp
November 52 degrees.
Long sleeve dry weave,
Solid hiking pants.

5 minutes in it’s raining.
Sure the shirt is wicking water,
But it’s not made for the heavy stuff.
And 52 in the rain is different,
Than 52 in the sun.

The rain stops.
I step along and look up.
Contrasting cloud greys:
Dense scudders looming dark
Against
The eggshell white background.

5 minutes later
More rain, heavy at times.
I laugh as the dog and I
Are getting soaked.
I laugh because I believe we should laugh
Humans should laugh
When we’re getting soaked,
Especially if it’s
On a relatively warm day
And a car not far away.

Even if it’s 2020.
Especially if it’s 2020

5 minutes later it’s hail:
Small pellets,
Hat bill clickers,
Rock tickers,
Ricocheting off trees onto me.
Not big enough to hurt the dog.

Again I grin,
A little more fiercely,
Since unannounced winter is here.

Want more? The adventure continues in my book Self of Steam available from Amazon!

I am a tree for #tankatuesday

This weeks challenge involves using this website to find out what tree you are. I am an alder. The characteristics that immediately caught my attention were “trailblazer” and “pathfinder”, since I spend so much time in the woods.

Did I find this path?
It has been worn into soil
By thousands of feet.
Now I add my steps to it
My mind blazing a new way.

Although I often walk the same trails, they have a “same river twice” quality. I find that every hike is unique, and now matter how many times I walk the same path, my mind is renewed.

Have some fun and take the challenge here.